Appalling Conversation

Mar.10, '09. 10:00 am (in our time) Accounting Time.

"So, you're late." So surprised to hear her talking to me since it's so unusual. Basically, I'll just come (late or not) and be seated without any of my seatmates questioning my entrance. Besides, there's no professor yet.

So just I nodded discreetly.

"My first impressions were all right." Same voice and eyes staring at my shoulder bag which I usually place in front of my chair.

Then I answered "excuse me?"

"Yeah. Don't be so surprised Mr. Reyes (they pronounce it as 'rice') I'm talkin' to you." This time, I got her green eyes with upsetting look.

"Can I help you?" After saying that, she replied quickly. And I'm puzzled.
"CAN YOU HELP ME?" I can't imagine she could talk in a high tone. She's not shouting but it's not her normal pitch. "How could you help me? How pathetically could you help me?!!" My eyes can't move in surprise and I'm just looking at her blankly.

So I grabbed her arms and took her outside, find a right place for this kind of conversation.

"What's your problem? You know you can really talk in a nice way. I will listen." My voice was shaking not because I'm afraid but I don't know what to say.

"You tricked me and tricking me and you made me find myself stupid!!! Aren't you? AREN'T YOU!?" Tears flowing in her eyes and my heart pumps so fast. This time, I really don't know what to do. How could I be so insensitive with someone's emotional state.

"You just played with my feelings, Geo! You messed up everything in me!! Didn't you know that? Huh?? DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT!!!???" Perfect. The words I loathed to hear.

"STOP SHOUTING! HOW THE HELL I MESSED YOU UP!?? *sigh* Can't we talk in a better way? Because I hardly understand. Where those words came from?"

"From my heart."

"What did I do? What? Can you--"

"See you didn't know. I love you. From the very start. Even before you hang out with Nicole and her group. And I assumed you feel the same after being with them. You treated me so nice and I thought I was so special. You keep on doing things just to get my attention. How could you be so gentleman with someone you didn't like after all? How could you let me feel so distinct from others without liking me?"

"I... I like you as--"

"As a friend. Don't say the heartbreaking word. That is why... *sigh* I don't bother to speak with you from the very start. I knew it's your nature to care and to love people... girls in particular, so I'd rather have my mouth closed. At first, I thought you like Nicole then I noticed not. You're just being good and yeah I can't hold on to my plans... so see, it's killing me now."

I can't say a word. How the hell could I? I didn't know these. She's nice and if I'm going to choose a girl in school to be my girlfriend, I'll pick her... but our feelings for each other are parallel. It's the friendship that I could only offer. The worst? She's just a friend to me ever since.

"I'm sorry if--" I told her and she interrupted again.

"No, you dont have to say that. We're friends right? It's nothing to me because it was all my fault. I respect you and everything about you."

"But how did you know?"

"From MJ's... you know, keep on spreading your blog. Writing here, writing there. So one time I tried to visit *while nodding* perfect, at least I know now. You told me, yeah but I took that as a joke. I just really really thought that I'm the one. Ha-ha stupid."

"Can we still be friends? Like before?"

"Do you really love your girlfriend more than you love me?"

I nodded thrice.

She smiled, wiping her tears. "My pleasure. At least I know where should I place myself."
I hugged her and whispered "I'm sorry."

"And oh, *she pushed me* your girl might get jealous. I just want you to do me a favour."

I exhaled and asked "what?"

She flipped her hair. "Put our whole conversation in your blog. Wanna read it and let's see if you can remember. So, let's now go inside." she muttered with her beautiful gloomy eyes.

BLACK

Alam ko ayaw mo ng dark colors like this but I want you to know that this is going to be me without you, so don't ever try. Please.

And one more thing, gusto ko lang din na ma-appreciate mo lahat ng bagay na hindi mo naman gusto. At least, appreciate 'di ba? Siguro maa-appreciate mo 'to kasi ako ang gumawa, pero sana sa ibang bagay, mai-apply mo rin. See the beauty in everything.

Sorry if sometimes I made you cry, unintentionally. Hindi ko ginustong gawin yon, swear. Kaya as much as possible, iniiwasan ko. Believe me, hindi ko gustong umiiyak ka. :( Mas nasa-sad ako. So, yun lang. Naghihintay ka kaya hindi ko na patatagalin pa 'to.



This is for you. I love you, mine. :D

Farewell, Master Rapper

The Man From Manila who opened the door for all the talented Filipino rappers and was considered a legend in Philippine music community. MTV Asia's first Pinoy VJ and a very aspiring actor who made the Pinoys proud of who they are.

For us you won the battle.

(Oct.4, 1964-Mar.6,2009)

"ang magkaaway, ipagbati... gumitna ka, wag kang kumampi..." -Mga Kababayan Ko.

That's the only line I know but I'm very much familiar of the song. My brother was an avid fan of Francis M. It's really devastating to hear the news last Friday.

Boss Kiko, you will live forever in our hearts. Our prayers be with you and your family. May you rest in peace.

Effective

I can't imagine how effective blogs were since I had this experiment of my own. It's been a successful pronouncement and for that, I would like to thank MJ for broadcasting my url at my place but I'm not thankful all the time as he keeps on reminding our classmates to visit this page.

I don't have any problem with my colleagues regarding this because they don't bother to ask and I told them not to visit without further announcement. How true they wouldn't but at best they don't inquire.

So let's leave it like that and don't worry I have no plan to vary my url, if a mind changed then I'll inform everyone except for MJ. :D

Nose

I can smell the pongy, whiffy, niffy, stinky odour of the future quandary which may lead to uncertainty of the management's stability on account of thick-skinned stupids. Some of you might read this and spread the news, well then pleasure! Strongly made for criminal rats who keep on munching the cheese of the chief while the huge cat is away.

Even rats knew that stealing is a crime and now you guys stood like full-blooded rats whose teeth are vigorous and acting like more than a bloodsucker. You can mess with me but not with the enchanted realm that was established through hard work and all, with blood and exudation. No one of you could enter the archway of secrecy to munch all the cheese and continue the legacy. You cannot... with or without ID.

I'm warning all of you from crews to heads. Be afraid because I will give you bunch of reasons why. This may be an informal act of announcement but you can never tell me the meaning of formality since I perceived the irregularity of accounts and off-the-record withdrawals. How tragic.

I'm only using my nose 'till I got time for my eyes to open for you to put on jail. I can easily trace the very good source of the catastrophes, don't make me try. There's no way for you to cover your head once I tried.

If you think you're a possible suspect and you know something about this... report to Brav, immediately. IMMEDIATELY.


I'll fire those who act like clean and ignored.

Visit

Stoke Park Club. A country club in Stoke Poges. Europe's leading country club and resort.

900 years old and the first country club in England.

Try to visit if you have some time particularly for this coming season. It's really a soothing place, so free from commotion. You can think of whatever you want, right MJ? Haha.

Nandito lang talaga ako para inggitin si MJ eh, hindi niya naman naiintindihan 'to kaya bahala siya. Hahaha.

Harry Potter's hand and Grandpa.

HARRY POTTER??? Hahaha.. That's my Hedwig. What can you say, MJ? Hahaha... My own version of Hedwig, hindi na owl... parrot na. Hahaha. Sari-sariling version 'to, si superman nga chemist na ngayon eh. Hahaha. Naku baka magalit mine ko, sinisira ko ang original version ng Harry Potter. Haha.

My 4th glass of all time fave, Cranberry Juice.

Chill. Chill. Chill. Haha... kanino bang tita yang umextra diyan sa larawan. LARAWAN!!! Hahaha. Ang saya ng ganyang camera, pati pimples makukuha. Thanks to mom, fortunately don't have one.

Salads and BBQs.

Those are your favorite foods, MJ! Sooo yummy. I hope you can also visit Stoke for a dream come true. Hahaha. You'll get so bored 'cause you don't even play golf, cricket or boodles tennis. Huhu. What are you going to do when you get there? It's summer, you can't ski. Wahahaha.

Well, I promise to bring you there on your wedding. The bride should be Pau, if not then say sorry for yourself. Hahaha. Now we're even. Quits!

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Kala neto ha, ginantihan ko lang talaga yan kasi kung anu-ano sinusulat sa composition niya kumakalat tuloy sa school ang kung anu-anong balita at pinagkakalat itong blog ko. Hahaha. Yun lang. Hehe.

Adik

Siyempre ayaw kong gawing english ang post na 'to dahil sa mga cheesy kong kaibigan dito. Cheesy...mosa... cheesymosa! Haha. Kaya Pau, 'wag mo na itranslate maawa ka naman sa 'kin. Every single day na lang na magkakasama-sama tayo, question and answer na lang ba at ikaw naman si translate. Mapagod ka naman.

MJ, mind your own business this post isn't for you, nor for Pau. So let me, LET ME, let me finish this in tagalog (i hope i can) to the fullest extent of my power. Wehehe.

Para na 'kong adik. Nalulungkot ako kapag hindi kami nakakapag-usap. Oi walang akong pakealam sa mga disparaging readers diyan. Bahala kayo, magbasa na lang kayo. Haha. Don't tell me that I'm insane, kasi nung pinanganak ako... sabi yata nung doctor eh I'm going to be insane raw paglaki ko. Tinutupad ko lang naman ngayon para hindi sila mapahiya sa parents ko. Haha.

You're like a heroin to me. Sus! GASGAS! Haha. Nakaka-adik. Haha. Parang alam ko na yung ikcomment ni Ancis dito. Hi Ancis, magbasa ka na lang. Tigilan na yang kaka-eww mo. Hahaha.

Wala gusto ko lang maglabas ng kalungkutan sa blog ko. Nalulumbay ako. NALULUMBAY!!! Hahaha. Tignan mo yung first and last post ko for February, both were exclusively for you. Ganyan kita ka-mahal eh. Hindi ko namamalayan, sa 'yo na lang umiikot ang blog ko. Hehe.

Pinag-aaralan ko rin pala 'yung Adobe Photoshop. Naistorbo ko pa si Charlene (thanks super!) ng wala sa oras. As if mabasa ni Charlene 'to and as if natutunan ko naman. Haha. I don't persevere for such a thing. But thanks to her, really.

Wala akong ginawa maghapon kundi isipin ka. Haha ang corny talaga pero totoo. Papacheck-up na nga ako bukas, malala na yata ako. Ang lakas na yata ng tama ko. I just mmmmiiiiiissssssss you so much. Bakit ganun? Kahit may messenger, hindi pa rin enough. I want you, only you. Walang halong cheesy...mosa around. Haha. (pero nagpapasalamat pa rin ako sa mga cheesy naming messengers. hehe.)

YUN LANG.

Uy mine! wwaaalllaaa... i love you. :(