'wag kang TANGA pls

You don't understand.

You don't understand because you are not trying to understand. Pls 'wag ka namang tanga. You are wasting your time, I tell you. You're merely destroying yourself. This is not about what we have told you or the simple things we've done for you, this isn't about lecturing you yet you are covering your ears, this isn't about the time & effort that were wasted... NO. Do those things matter at all? Of course not, this is all about you. How good you are in ruining yourself!

I don't care if you're not paying attention on what I am saying, go ahead moron. Those are not for us. After all, who will suffer idiot? Who is suffering now? I AM NOT ANGRY NOR ANNOYED.

This is just a normal reaction of a friend that's so much worried about you. Pls don't be so stupid and stop torturing yourself. I beg you. This is me begging you.
If you can't do it for those people who care, then at least do it for yourself.

Let it go. Give it up. Settle down.

You know even if you reject my words more than a thousand times, I will not resign. I'll still be your friend. But how about yourself? Until when, huh?

Turn your king down, stop the clock, give a handshake and accept your defeat. CHECKMATE ka na! You understand? MA-TE KA NA KAYA! MA-TE KA NA! And so? Right? At least you played with your best. You've done your part. Isn't that enough?

Learn from your mistakes.

I'm afraid of the person you're becoming right now. That's not you anymore, will you just let someone change you? SOMEONE WHO LIVES IN THE PAST? That should be living there forever. Permanent address niya: PAST. Why not?

You are not the loser here, promise.
That one can never find another you. Only brainless could not realize. May utak siya, marerealize niya 'yon... soon. DON'T wait for that time anyway.

Fight back, fight clean and keep it right. It is not yet the end. Pls talaga, 'wag kang tanga. I repeat 'wag kang tanga. 'Wag kang tanga.

Why? 'Di ba ayaw mo sa tanga? Don't hate yourself.
Do the thing. Do it!

Bla bla

Bla bla bla bla bla... bla bla and bla bla bla bla bla... bla bla. In addition, you must bla bla bla bla bla.. bla bla. Alright? I need that tomorrow coz bla bla bla bla... bla bla... are we clear?

Then I nodded once.

Life gets busy. I'm tired of being a schooldude all day long. I'm not used to these things, spending so much time for studies in different ways, researching for 'what-will-be-the-use-of-these stuffs' and other weird requirements. You surprised me professors, now I advice my friends from my former school including other Pinoy students that you better stay there if you do not want to learn things like bla bla bla which are not even needed in life.

Bla bla bla will not make you better, no need to elaborate. Hehe.


All of those were just time-eaters that made me miss my friends, my chair at the office, my niece & nephew, my PSP, my bed, my pet, my pen, my books, my balance sheets, my guitar, my neighbor (joke lang hehe), my team, my family and most especially... my girlfriend. (Nye pambawi lang dun sa neighbor, feeling ka nanaman olis. Haha). I love you muah.

That's all. :D

Dadi

No, you thought it wrong. I'm not here to make an entry for my dad because we already greeted him.

This post is for myself.


HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ME.


Haha. My wife didn't greet me so at least this one makes me feel better. I would like to thank myself for greeting myself. Thank you, Geo. I love you. Muah. Haha.

Haha

Mighty busy at work 'till midnight, just checking all the accounts before June. Not because I'm here means I'm back because I still have many things to unravel what many people have not been able to solve. I'll find a viable solution in my own ways.

Still senior, I thought. But what is my superiority to you?


Eh sino ba naman kasi ako para iwanan mo ng mensahe sa araw-araw. Sino ba naman ako para sabihan mo kahit konting updates lang. Sino ba naman ako para sabihan mo ng nararamdaman mo. Sino ba naman ako para maalala mo?



Haha.

A Piece Of Shit

Not a good day. It's really necessary to keep everything that bugs you than to share with someone else after all you'll just be surprised because they don't even understand your part. Why is it everyone turned to be so stupid? Including me yeah but others are worse and it's nothing but a piece of shit.

Demmet! I was doing so well then it all went to hell.


I don't want to talk to anyone, no exemption. Whatever relationship we have (sister, bro, friend or gf) pack up your shits and leave.

Don't knock on my door, I don't want to hear any noise and useless questions & sermons.


Bye!

url changed

Had to change my url for a specific reason- trespassing. Hahaha. I also decided to make my other page private for the same reason. Haha.

But my sisters and friends asked me what's the new one so I have no choice, they still know this. Hi to all! Haha.

My colleagues were also informed because they're at my back; peeking while I'm busy thinking of new url 'til I changed. It's ok, they are all harmless and trustworthy besides it's useful too for immediate announcements.


trespass [tréspəss]
noun (plural trespasses) law cause injury: to cause injury to the person, property, or rights of another
sin: a sin or act of wrongdoing (archaic)



We are all unfair. We believe what we want to believe. We hate what we want to hate even if they don't hate us and without their knowledge. I'm just doing this for our (my gf & I) own good and privacy against super villains. Haha. Please act like nothing's new.

Thank you.

befuddles

Nauubusan ng topic. I don't blame you for anything, ever. So, you don't have to blame yourself and you're not liable for it.

-4/2/09 2:41 AM

Today is April 3, same atmosphere... luminous, humid and hot with unchanged setting of my everyday scene since last week. I'm officially bored. I can't stand with this anymore because it feels so inept, humiliating the worth of my existence.

The more I'm here, the extra I feel so sick. And sicker and sickest. The more I'm here, the more I feel so foolish. I can't think... I don't know what to say, look at my blog- nothing's new. It's like my head is empty and just continually aching.


Please let me get out of here.

Je suis vraiment désolé

I'm not feeling well since last week but no worries, I'm going to be fine. Aside from waiting for my sleeping beauty (because she's sleeping na sshh), I'm here to incite the conficker virus. Nothing, just to know if it was the cause of my coherent disconnection yesterday and to prove that it's real. They say it's true then at least let me feel; to feel yes as if virus is visible haha well even if it is... so? And I care because? Haha. I'm not hooked with eye-believers anymore. Leave it.

Also, I'm here to say merci! for all the prayers and love that all of you (friends, folks & mine) have shown. Merci en dépit de ou malgré tout.



Why is it that 'thank you' is such an easy thing to say yet 'sorry' is so hard? I admit, sorry seems to be the hardest word. And 'thank you' isn't the easiest... for me, it's 'i love you.' Haha. Moving on, I know I say 'sorry' sporadically but once I said it... it was really from my heart, nothing more. It's not something strained or just forced because nobody can push me if I don't want to.

I wish to end that misunderstanding so we can also be friends because I guess we're gonna click including JA on the circle. And I'm not saying these just to load up your feelings or flutter your conscience... NO. I solely want to let you know that I'm sincere.


I was only asking if I have to say so because if I do, you also need to. But it turned out wrong and produced another misunderstanding. So if you can still accept...


I'm sorry again/squared/for the second time. Forgive me. Je suis vraiment désolé.

Swim

People care. You can only sense it if you grant them a chance.

You have friends, best friends (notably they're just there waiting for you to share), family and most especially The One Up There. A person possessing such blessings like that has no reason to feel neglected, as long as you don't give yourself perverse reasons. If you do, there's no ground for you to say that you are neglected.

Because the problem is in you.


Talking and doctoring yourself for quite sometime might help a lot for the reason that it's only you who knows what you want and need. Asking His guidance is excellent.

All things are easy for those who seek for easy things.

As Mang Joe (a farmer from Tarlac) once said: "What you sow is what you reap." He told that to CJ way back high school days. Haha.

It depends on how you handle your life. So, that's how you deal with it. The question now is... are you happy? Are you going to be happy? If yes, then I won't stop you from drowning yourself.

But there is just one thing I would like you to remember...

you don't know how to swim.

You don't have to drown yourself, sinking will stream automatically. And it's unfair for you because you'll just lose without fighting. If you willn't swim, you'll stay there forever. You have to care about yourself. Well if you don't, we do.

We know how to swim just shout a help.

Perplexed

I have never been so confused like a dumb little boy who cannot pick between Yes or No. Until you came.


You love me, I know you do.
But is it really essential for a guy to say 'i love you' first and ladies would just answer with a 'too'? I don't mind but it's something to consider. Especially if a man would just hear the 'i love you' from his girl only after having their LQ. What do you want me to think about that? I'm not saying "girls, you have to say i love you to your love ones every minute." No.

I'm so tired, the world knew that. And I'm not using my weariness for an excuse.
I'm not reasoning out but this is the perfect time for me to feel that I have someone who really cares. Yes you do, but look at me... I don't think it's enough.


How could you leave without saying anything I need to hear right now. RIGHT NOW.

Too late for you to realize (if you do), I've thrown the papers by now. Anyway I'm already exhausted so I decided to feel it to the fullest. I invited Brav and friends to swim in vodka ocean and in pool of different types of beer... besides I know how to swim.


Cheers!!! Tagay!!!



I'm g**damn frustrated. Anybody help?

Appalling Conversation

Mar.10, '09. 10:00 am (in our time) Accounting Time.

"So, you're late." So surprised to hear her talking to me since it's so unusual. Basically, I'll just come (late or not) and be seated without any of my seatmates questioning my entrance. Besides, there's no professor yet.

So just I nodded discreetly.

"My first impressions were all right." Same voice and eyes staring at my shoulder bag which I usually place in front of my chair.

Then I answered "excuse me?"

"Yeah. Don't be so surprised Mr. Reyes (they pronounce it as 'rice') I'm talkin' to you." This time, I got her green eyes with upsetting look.

"Can I help you?" After saying that, she replied quickly. And I'm puzzled.
"CAN YOU HELP ME?" I can't imagine she could talk in a high tone. She's not shouting but it's not her normal pitch. "How could you help me? How pathetically could you help me?!!" My eyes can't move in surprise and I'm just looking at her blankly.

So I grabbed her arms and took her outside, find a right place for this kind of conversation.

"What's your problem? You know you can really talk in a nice way. I will listen." My voice was shaking not because I'm afraid but I don't know what to say.

"You tricked me and tricking me and you made me find myself stupid!!! Aren't you? AREN'T YOU!?" Tears flowing in her eyes and my heart pumps so fast. This time, I really don't know what to do. How could I be so insensitive with someone's emotional state.

"You just played with my feelings, Geo! You messed up everything in me!! Didn't you know that? Huh?? DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT!!!???" Perfect. The words I loathed to hear.

"STOP SHOUTING! HOW THE HELL I MESSED YOU UP!?? *sigh* Can't we talk in a better way? Because I hardly understand. Where those words came from?"

"From my heart."

"What did I do? What? Can you--"

"See you didn't know. I love you. From the very start. Even before you hang out with Nicole and her group. And I assumed you feel the same after being with them. You treated me so nice and I thought I was so special. You keep on doing things just to get my attention. How could you be so gentleman with someone you didn't like after all? How could you let me feel so distinct from others without liking me?"

"I... I like you as--"

"As a friend. Don't say the heartbreaking word. That is why... *sigh* I don't bother to speak with you from the very start. I knew it's your nature to care and to love people... girls in particular, so I'd rather have my mouth closed. At first, I thought you like Nicole then I noticed not. You're just being good and yeah I can't hold on to my plans... so see, it's killing me now."

I can't say a word. How the hell could I? I didn't know these. She's nice and if I'm going to choose a girl in school to be my girlfriend, I'll pick her... but our feelings for each other are parallel. It's the friendship that I could only offer. The worst? She's just a friend to me ever since.

"I'm sorry if--" I told her and she interrupted again.

"No, you dont have to say that. We're friends right? It's nothing to me because it was all my fault. I respect you and everything about you."

"But how did you know?"

"From MJ's... you know, keep on spreading your blog. Writing here, writing there. So one time I tried to visit *while nodding* perfect, at least I know now. You told me, yeah but I took that as a joke. I just really really thought that I'm the one. Ha-ha stupid."

"Can we still be friends? Like before?"

"Do you really love your girlfriend more than you love me?"

I nodded thrice.

She smiled, wiping her tears. "My pleasure. At least I know where should I place myself."
I hugged her and whispered "I'm sorry."

"And oh, *she pushed me* your girl might get jealous. I just want you to do me a favour."

I exhaled and asked "what?"

She flipped her hair. "Put our whole conversation in your blog. Wanna read it and let's see if you can remember. So, let's now go inside." she muttered with her beautiful gloomy eyes.

Nose

I can smell the pongy, whiffy, niffy, stinky odour of the future quandary which may lead to uncertainty of the management's stability on account of thick-skinned stupids. Some of you might read this and spread the news, well then pleasure! Strongly made for criminal rats who keep on munching the cheese of the chief while the huge cat is away.

Even rats knew that stealing is a crime and now you guys stood like full-blooded rats whose teeth are vigorous and acting like more than a bloodsucker. You can mess with me but not with the enchanted realm that was established through hard work and all, with blood and exudation. No one of you could enter the archway of secrecy to munch all the cheese and continue the legacy. You cannot... with or without ID.

I'm warning all of you from crews to heads. Be afraid because I will give you bunch of reasons why. This may be an informal act of announcement but you can never tell me the meaning of formality since I perceived the irregularity of accounts and off-the-record withdrawals. How tragic.

I'm only using my nose 'till I got time for my eyes to open for you to put on jail. I can easily trace the very good source of the catastrophes, don't make me try. There's no way for you to cover your head once I tried.

If you think you're a possible suspect and you know something about this... report to Brav, immediately. IMMEDIATELY.


I'll fire those who act like clean and ignored.