2nd month

Yesterday, while eating... I tried to press the keys and spread my words with so much love... I tried and tried and it's a shame to say that I could not. But I did find a way... I stopped eating so my major left hand saves the day.

21 April 12:00am


I wish I am with you to teach you how to fly in the water and swim in the air. Yeah, impossible is nothing, see where we are & what we have right now; very much happy so far. Are we? Of course. As long as we hold our hands together, tighter and tightest. "...higpitan lang ang 'yong kapit..." (OPM? Not so me. Haha.) Look! You changed something in here. Hehe.

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I wasn't able to finish my post yesterday... distracted by so much ache of my right hand and head with fever ranging 39-40 deg. Technically, I'm not feeling well so what's new. I had to rush in my second home- the hospital. So hello to my family here all over again. I don't understand why am I like this. Forever unwell; sometimes I thought of giving up my life but whenever I think of you... I choose to live.


I also tried to draw last time unfortunately my hand was shaking. Will you still love me for being such like this- stupid & so inept? Inutil na lang para cool. Haha. It feels so walang kwenta, wrong timing but you know, honestly my heart is so prepared. For whatever that will come ahead.


You have no idea how much I love you. I think that perhaps we always fall in love the very first instant we feel the woman of our dreams, even though sometimes there's more reason in opposition to what we want but we keep on fighting against that. Defeat is just around ready to eat me alive until I opened my eyes.. I am not alone. I have you and we're too big to be eaten.

Yeah, I love you very much as I have never loved another woman, and that's precisely why I'm still holding on, because if I let go... love for me will just transform into zilch- like a stupid man 24/7 in the library but still gets zero. Haha. I will not allow myself to be like that so stick with me.


Blissful 2nd month to us. May we have more birthdays to come. Haha. Let us always be inspired and strong for me, for you and for Ron. I love you, mommy. >:D< :*